I want my husband back :o(

Brian is really having a hard time right now. He has absolutely no energy and his swallowing has been very difficult. He doesn't smile much and he doesn't talk much. Even though he is done with the treatments, of course you just don't snap your fingers and everything gets back to normal. I really miss my husband. I know he'll get there some day, but it's so hard to see him like this.

I have been really glad to get back into the swing of things doing yard work for spring and running errands and trying to get things situated with Tyler's graduation just around the corner. But everything is not normal for him. I was so busy getting back into the swing of things I have forgotten that he still needs attention. Not that I was ignoring him, but I was there for him for 7 weeks every single minute of the day, and now that reality is upon me, and now I have other things that need my attention (including my children that have been ignored for 7 weeks). I thought being home would be easier, but actually it is more difficult. I am pulled in so many directions now I can't see straight.

I know that he doesn't want me to go back to work on Monday, and I really would love to stay home and take care of him, but I need to get back because this is a really busy time of year for me, and of course you know the bills don't go away just because you are off work!!

We'll get through it, but nobody said I had to enjoy it! I'm not complaining, really! I am really glad to be away from that hospital . . . . okay I may be complaining just a little - sorry about that!