Friday, April 22, 2011

Better day today

Brian had a better day today, but looks really pale for some reason. He's very tired, but his nausea was better today. He's been complaining that he's cold.

It's good to be home, but for some reason I'm just exhausted today. I think everything is catching up with me. I'm hoping that now that we will be back home in 3 days and I have to go back to work in a week that I don't crash. It's back to reality again. I'm not sure what that really is, but I'm sure I will find out very soon. This all still feels like it's all a dream and I'm hoping that I'll wake up . Ok, I know that won't happen, but it was worth a shot.

I wish that the worry would go away, that's the toughest part of this. We will now have to wait for 3 whole months to see if all this has been worth it. I pray that it has been. I don't know what I'd do if we heard that the cancer is still there. God I hope we don't hear that. I am not prepared for that. My head tells me that I refuse to think otherwise, but my heart says, what if? It's really a scary thing. All we can do now is wait . . . .

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